I'm writing this as a window of 'Lucy normality' has just appeared. Strange really as I had no sleep at all last night. That's despite the large dose of Temazepam which I'm on. Ironic really considering how much I used to sleep (but that's another story).

So, could this be the end of the nightmare?

Fingers crossed.

I seem to have reacted idiosyncratically to every drug I've been given - and i've been given a lot. Drugs to stop side effects from drugs, which isn't so great and leads to more confusion and muddle and my body being pulled apart like an old rag doll. So it's all been very frustrating and annoying.

And i've had windows of normality before only for them to have been superseded by intense periods of loonness (yes, politically incorrect, I am). So who knows? I guess if I post again soon things will be on the up and if not, i'm just lost in the dark for a bit longer...but I WILL return.